Mom I'm scared. / Kristie Chism (Daughter)
I'm really scared. I wish you were here to go with me to the Doctor. I need you to hold my hand and tell me it's going to be ok. Does God hate me? I suffer everyday and it's not fair. Sometimes I think it'd just be easier to die but I can't do that I'm a Chism which means I'm a fighter right? At least I tell myself that. I need some kind of sign that it's going to be ok or a sign it's not going to be ok. I'll take either I just need you so fucking bad right now. I love you. Close
mom/ Kristie Chism (Daughter)
Mom
There's been a lot going on lately. Some stuff I can't even discuss on here because it's not something i'd like to share with everyone but PLEASE watch over Booger. We've had a stressful week but it's finally over with. Now I just hope he goes down the right path. Watch over him he needs your guidance. I'm praying he straightens up I'm worried about him. Dad got married in Juni. It was a nice wedding and Sue is AMAZING! I know you liked her. Who would of thought he'd end up with her. I know your happy for them she's good to him and good to us. While she'll never replace you she's a great substitute. I love her to pieces. Calvin just recently lost his first tooth he pulled it out himself! Dayton and Calvin are getting SO big. Calvin actually was looking at your urn and told Bj he thought you fell off a cliff and Dayton thought you choked where do they come up with this stuff??? they are so funny and precious. And little Lynzie she's the most BEAUTIFUL girl in the world. I wish you could of met her. She's so smart 2 years old and already knows all her Letters potty trained she's just amazing and we can't forget about my little pukeface John or Case as we call him. He's soo stinking adorable. He's little john 100%. I don't think the world is ready for ANOTHER John Chism but he's here and he's just as beautiful as the rest of your grand kids. I wish you were here to help me with my new house. It's a mess holy crap I wish I had your cleaning skills! School and work are kicking my ass but I have to deal with it. I don't want to wait tables forever. I'm so lucky to have Chris in my life. He pushes me to better myself he's my best friend and soul mate and I really think you'd love him. I love him to death. He fits in with everyone the kids love him and he's a big sweet heart. He's NEVER called me a bad name yelled at me it's been 4 years and he STILL opens my car door any door for that matter and tells me I'm beautiful everyday. Bj's in school i'm so proud of her I know you are too. John is working and taking care of his family you'd proud of him too. And Booger he's been doing better. I wish you could give them all a sign your still around and are proud of them. I think they need it. I think we all do. I love you more than words could ever describe. Watch over our family we need you in our life no matter what. Close
sister's forever / JoAnne Bierzynski (sister)
I miss you so much. The years go by fast but my memory of you will never fade. I can not believe it will be 6 years since you left us. I wonder what God had in store for you that you had to leave too soon? 37??? what was he thinking?? Friends come and go but a sister is a sister forever. I love you Patti. Close
5 yrs / Barb Davis (sister)
5 yrs later and Imiss u as much as I did the day u left us.. I wish u would come to me in my dreams.. I love u and miss u so much.. Ill never get over the thought of losing u. I wish I was with u right now Close
In Loving memory of you 5 years ago / JoAnne Bierzynski (sister)Read >>
In Loving memory of you 5 years ago / JoAnne Bierzynski (sister)
In loving memory of my beautifuly sister Patti who left us 5 years ago today. My heart is just as empty today as it was 5 years ago. I miss you always and l love you forever I will never understand why you are gone. My heart is empty without you. Close
I had a dream last night that you were still alive. It felt so real the phone rang and it was you asking "what are ya doing" just like you always did..never hello..just what are ya doing. In my dream I said I'm missing you and you said why..I'm right here. You are Patti you are in my heart and my memories of you are strong. You were the glue that kept us all together. You life was so short but made such an impact on all of us. Tomorrow is 7 years since Porky died. I know that will be a hard day for Diane. I hope she feels his and your love in her heart tomorrow and that the day is not too hard for her.
I will always miss you but you will always be in my heart.
geez i cant belive it's been 4 years already.... seems like just yesterday u were at the house drinking coffe watchin soaps. I miss them days sumtimes i wonder how they'd be now then i'm glad u r not here on this earth 2 face the wars money issues all the heartache tears& suffering. I miss you after 4 years i feel u stronger than ever around me i know u r always with me! i'm so glad for all the fun that we've had. i dont know y but 4 sum reason i sum how convinced myself it was goin 2 be 5 years this year and I was like "what? where'd the 1 year go??" cause i was like thinkin back& addin all the years up& it just didnt make sence to me how'd it'd be 5 years!!!! lol but i love u& think of u always!!!.....
4 yrs today.. / Barb Davis (Sister)
Well 4 years later Im still here.. How I made it this far without u is a miricale.. I miss u Patti. We all miss u so damn much... There r many times u r with me. Its a good thing All r stupidity and jokes we pulled on people. still lingers in me cos of u. Love u and Miss the hell out of u Love Barb Close
miss you so much / JoAnne Bierzynski (sister)Read >>
miss you so much / JoAnne Bierzynski (sister)
I love you and miss you you will always be in my heart. Close
still missing my little sister / JoAnne Bierzysnki (sister)
another year today that I won't get my birthday card with that special lucky lottery ticket, I miss those days. I lost another friend to cancer yesterday, so much has changed since you passed. One thing that has not changed is how much I still miss you. I think of you every day. I prayytou are at peace. Close
Help us / Barb Davis (sister)
Patti, Please come to ur family, help them them feel ur presense, John misses u SOO MUCh. you r the love of his lfe, He will never stop loving u, He needs u RIGHT NOW, Show him u r with him. I love u sis C u soon Close
Happy Thanksgiving Patti I wish u were here, I spoke with Kim today, She is battling cancer, she may be with u b4 me! Patti Please watch over Booger He needs to feel ur presense more than ever right now. Well the Aerosmith mobile is now with u. I had some good memories in that car , We had some good times chasing Aerosmith! Heck we even had Brad Whitfords bus driver ride in that car!! Shine it up for me and once I get to u , we will chase Aerosmith again!
To honor your memory / JoAnne Bierzynski (Sister)Read >>
To honor your memory / JoAnne Bierzynski (Sister)
Patti,
I miss you so much, I have a lot of questions and only you have the answers...I miss the days I could just pick up the phone and call or wait for your call, we used to solve the whole world's problems...LOL. I am glad I was able to fight for you when you were too weak to fight anymore and I know in my heart you felt my love as I felt yours.
I know you are up there with mom and dad and Porky and Busi and Uncle Eddie and there is enough love for everyone up there...please send some love down this way. This world would be better place with a little more kindness and love to spread around! Give mom and dad a kiss and hug from me...they were the best parents in the world and I miss them too. Let's all remember the meaning of this web site...to honor your memory and to help save lives through awareness.
HI, Patti, I miss u so much! I dont know what all that got started 4,but I hope & prey u r not mad wtih me 4 speakin my mind, cause that's 1 thing u always told me was importnant. To speak up and not be shy! And well as u can see I have changed. JUut a lil! So I wish I could still call u, and u pick up & anwser the phone. Or u could right back, but when I dream of u, I know u r there!
I wonder what heaven is like? I don't want 2 die, but i can not wait 2 be back with u, Jonh, Porky, AND OF COURSE GARANDMA!!! WE ALL MISS ALL OF U GUYS SO DAMN MUCH!!! GRANNY IF U CAN HEAR ME I LOVE U & MISS U DEARLY!
I KNOW I', MOT STUPID, I KNOW I'M NOT DUMB, AND I ALSO KNOW THAT I AM NOT THE MOST BRIGHTEST PERSON IN THIS WORLD. BUT I WILL SUCEED IN ALL I WANT TO DO! U ALWAYS HAVE BELIVED IN ME, AND HOPEFULLY NEVER STOP BELIVING! I HAVE MORE STRENGTH NOW THAN EVER BEFORE, LOOSIN U AND EVERY1 ELSE HAS PUT A TOLL IN MY LIFE, BUT ALSO BUILT UP MY HEART. AND IT IS EADY 4 WHAT EVER GOD AS READY 2 THROW AT ME!!!
I CAN SAY WAHTEVER AND DO WHATEVER, ALL THOUGH NONE OF THESE THINGS WILL EVER CHANGE ANYTHING, AND I DO NOT WANT 2 CHANGE A SINGLE THING IN MY LIFE!
I LOVE U, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE U, AND MISS U SO MUCH IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY! LOVE TIFFANY!!!!!!!!!!!! ALWAYS THINKIN OF U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Patti, We all know u r so much better off then the rest of us. All ur suffering from ur illness to ur life at home is behind u Thank God for that As I promised u b4 ur passed away , I would never repeat r last conversation we had. Im sorry that I did speak out some of the coversation but I just couldnt keep quiet anylonger, not when :ur side of the family: is being trashed by the other.
[THIS part deleted. Keep family disputes off Patti's memorial page. This is NOT the place for it.]
..I AM GLAD and so is Tiff that I QUIT my job and put Tiff in home school so we could be by ur side.. Im glad u wanted me and Tiff with u ..I think some people r jealous u chose me and Tiff.. Tiff and I had the best relationship with u..a relationship that no one could of ever took away. Many family members r bothered by that As for me and Tiff we SMILE everyday We love u and we will see u on the other side!
Dear Mom / Kristie Chism (DAUGHTER)
First off I know this message will be deleted because this site was made for my moms side of the family to sit around and feel sorry for themselves. I was also told that anything wrote on website is written to my mother and has nothing to do with anyone else, so that is what i'm going to do.
Dear mom,
First off I love you.
It was recently stated from your sister that the "whole chism" family wasn't by your side while you were in the hospital dying. So I would like to let you know why...Bj had an infant son and another one in diapers and couldn't be there for you the whole time. Little john is an emotional wreck and deals with things the best he can, I had a job and bills to pay as did dad. He HAD to work to pay the house payment on the house he BOUGHT for you and booger was only 12 years old and ACTUALLY went to school unlike other people. I'm sorry that we work for a living and aren't unemployed and homeschooled like the other people who were able to be there the whole time. It was also stated that you choose to die because you didn't want to deal with us kids. Which is a complete lie. You loved us more than anything in the whole world, we knew that then and know it to this day.
[THIS part deleted. Keep family disputes off Patti's memorial page. This is NOT the place for it.] I wish you were here to see the first granddaughter. She's going to be BEAUTIFUL. John is doing ok and Tiffanys gonna make a great mother. Tiffany has a beautiful figure and the best hair ever, I can't wait to see what Lynzie Anne looks like (yea shes gonna have your middle name). Dayton and Calvin are so fucking amazing. You would be proud of Bj and Klint and the kids they made. Booger is a mess. He really needs an ass beating. Hopefully he'll grow out of it. As for dad....he's still the same. Working when he can. He really misses you. He has a new girlfriend named Christine. You had to of sent her to him because she's awesome. I'm glad he found someone and I know you are too because he's to young to be alone forever. As for me, I'm working, and I have the most amazing boyfriend ever. He really treats me like a princess... you would LOVE him. I love you and miss you more then anything. And just because i'm living a normal life as is the rest of chism family it doesn't mean we don't love you or miss you. We just know that life goes on and it only gets eaiser.
What I Learned This Year / Tia Wood (unrelated sister )Read >>
What I Learned This Year / Tia Wood (unrelated sister )
I'll see you again one day, Patti!
There was this woman who reminded me of you who was in the hospital in a coma earlier this year. Her husband tried so hard to help her. He raised money to bring her to a special facility to treat her condition. Everyone tried to help keep his spirits up. He was a firefighter but the city wouldn't cover his wife's medical expenses.
He tried and tried for months but she would never improve. Finally, he had to make the decision to unplug her from life support. It was heartbreaking because it reminded me of what you and the family went through.
Then I realized something. It doesn't matter how hard a person tries, how hard a person wishes or how hard a person wants. When it's someone's time to go, it's someones time to go. Just as we all have "a time to go", it was your time to depart three years ago.
We all surely miss you. But I know we will all see you again, no doubt.